Anonymous asked: haha you are so pathetic.
if i’m pathetic don’t follow my blog.
KAY BYE.
Every time I see you it screws with me.
I know that not talking to you and not making an effort is the best thing for me, but that is not what I want.
I want to see you, whether it just be a passing a glance, group setting, or one-on-one.
I need you in my life.
If you want to say hi, say it.
If you want to have a conversation, start it.
I’m sick of playing dumb games that don’t do anything. I just miss you and I want to talk to you.
But because you play the game; I will too. The only difference is…I’ll play it harder.
i have a massive urge to drop out of school, delete my facebook and tumblr, throw my phone out the window and get on a train to somewhere random and just go on a massive adventure
I can not sit here and just like go through with things that I just don’t care about.
I don’t care about school work. I don’t care about high school. I don’t care about trying to impress anyone. I don’t care to make my parents proud. I simply don’t care.
I want a change of scenery.
I want to start my life.
I give up.
There are not enough words in any language to express how much I wish I would have just had work that afternoon.
I can’t say that if someone showed me a picture of myself now to me a a year ago that I would even recognize myself.
But then again, I don’t think that is a necessarily a bad thing.
Just a year ago I was in my first real relationship. Just a year ago I was shy and had never even thought about doing something illegal or rebellious. Just a year ago I had few friends but was okay with it. Just a year ago I was close with my mom. Just a year ago things were so different.
In the past year I have changed so much. For the better? I would have to say so. I’m more confident. I’ve learned to accept myself for the most part. I’ve let go off all the people that held me back or put me down. And when someone lets me go I’m trying to learn to roll with it. And I’ve just become so much stronger in my faith, which has led me to be a stronger person in general.
I like the “new” me. I like that my life is changing, even if some of the changes are hard I like it.
